Reboot
Oh man! I was about to start blogging again and I realised that this post was saved as a draft - ever since last summer (July 07)! Decided that I should just publish this post for now, even though it's horrendously outdated, as there's some thoughts that still remain true to this day, about work and about life in general.
__________________________________________________This has been a long overdue post I admit. Been telling myself that I should really sit down and start blogging again, so as to update those who are interested in what's going on in my life, but sadly, the procrastinator in me takes over all the time. Links and photo uploads have not been done, and there's possibly another one thousand and one things that I should do, but for one reason or another, I am not.
And so, it's been a long time since the previous blog post and I can't be bothered to dig up the backlog to see where I should start from. I suppose a general summary of the past year would do no harm right?
It's the summer holidays again and I'm back in Singapore. It feels so strange to be back again, and somehow there is no excitement this time round when the plane landed in the good old Changi Airport. Everything feels so familar and yet so distant. The scenes along ECP, the hot humid stuffy weather (even at 7am in the morning), the Singaporean accent, the hawker food... It's as if I've now become a visitor to my own country and I'm sad to say that I wished I have chosen to spend summer away from Singapore. I know that in some ways I'm just trying to escape from all the potential problems and the harsh reality, all those that I've somehow managed to escape from when I took the flight out of Singapore last October. York has become a psuedo-sanctuary for me, and as long as I'm there, I can pretend that everything else doesn't matter, but when I'm here, everything strikes hard.
I finished reading "The Time Traveller's Wife" just before I flew back and it struck me how hard the loss of a loved one can be, and it scares me how you would be like Claire, should I leave the world way before you. I suppose it's unfair to ask others to just move on, since I am guilty of it myself. I know I should let go, it's time to let go.
Erm yes, end of depressing cryptic bits. This is after all the first proper post. =P
*Reboot*
Am currently doing attachment again and well, as much as I would like to share my thoughts and the interesting stuff that I got to see there, I suspect I might have to kill every single reader if I do, or be thrown into prisons. Haha, what an irony. Anyway, I think the past few attachments has really been an eye-opener, though at the same time, I keep having doubts about my own abilities to perform at the job, and recently, doubts about having to work in the civil service and bonds and what-nots. Stuff that I really need to think through again. But all in all, I really find it interesting and challenging,
__________________________________________________Well, the reason why I think I saved the post instead of publishing it a year ago was because I haven't finished it (seeing as how the post was left hanging in mid-air). But oh well, there isn't a point in picking up from where I left off last year, if I'm about to start anew, is there?
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